hi people.

i've just reached home. School makes me cherish my friends ard me more. Jus finished audio camp. i love audio team. we are like one big happy family. i enjoyed myself so much. prayed and ask God to multiply the camp time. i miss audio camp le.
i know i have many assignments. but it seems tt i have no idea... and no confidence to do them. i hate myself being a perfectionist. i hate it. i hate to over stress myself. i need Jesus...

God help me. i'm weak.

well. haven blog for a long time. why? cos dunno for wat reason, my laptop cant acess into blogger. yup. i'm using my home com now. school have started for a week. getting abit used to the back-to-fixed-timetable lifestyle. My classes usually end vy late. average ending time is 5pm or 6pm.long days. but still praise God.

i wasnt happy about sch last wk. it was only the first wk of school. hahhahha. ok. due to a few factors. i was sick and having fever. it was a huge change in my lifestyle.. after floating for about a year with irregular wake up timings. i couldnt eat properly. period came. miss ca badly.. cos we were in different schs. blah blah blah.. with all of this. Jesus reminded me to look back at Him. cos His hand should be the one tt i hold on to when i go to sch.
i asked God for forgivness.

things are better this wk. wah. i have quite a number of modules. hahA. modules like drawing.. photoshop design.. photography..java..3D..video and audio. haha. quite a few assignment datelines too. sOon. i dun like last minute stuff. sOoo. i'm gona manage my time. ok! today is like my only early day. tt i can be home early. sooo. i shall go find meaningful stuff to do. hahaha.

oH! this fri to sunday is audio camp in church. shoiK! i'm looking forward to it so much. pray tt God multiply the time of the camp. hahHA. =))

i know..when i seek You with al my heart, i will surely find You.

yest i played this game wif ca. its call "do you really know me?" game. haha. ca played wif shawn today too.

guess wat?! i scored full marks for her questions can. hahha. beat tt. questions like.. wats her fave colour? wat does she ususally eat when she go subway? wat drinks she will drink? wats the colour of her curtains? her shoe sizes for various type of shoes.. how many shoes and heels and colour of belts she has.. when she sick wat she will eat.. her habits.. HAHA. i got it all right. man! full points! ting ting** haha three stars for myself ( * * * ). hahaha. well she got all my questions right too.hahaa. given her seriously forgetful brain. tts vy good. hahaha. OKAY LA! give u four stars LA. nah. ( * * * * )

i love ca vy vy much. and she is my bestest friend. =) blessing tt i am also grateful to God for. we have been through sooooo many ups and downs, tears and laughter. she jus loves me as who i am. she doesnt care about me past. she worries and takes care of me. She protects me not letting anyone or anything to harm me. even though she wasnt feeling well.. still insist to pei me do sound. She hugs me tight even i makes her angry. She doesnt mind mybad temper, impatience and dirtness(as in my room vy messy). She prays for me. Our concersations always include God. I know God is the centre of our friendship. and i'm vy happy. thank You Jesus. i Love You so much Lord.
haha. and toking about ca's blurness. sometimes ijus wanna strangle her, when she blur at the wrong time. seriously. her blurness n forgetfulness can jus make me speachless and amazed at times. makes me dunno to laugh or cry. hahaha. cute la. but this also makes me wana protect her. bring her here and there.. making sure she dun get bullied or lost. haha. ( seriously speaking.. she is much braver then me. cos i am vy timid). hahha.

give God the glory. i love you ger. u taught me how to express and hug wif love. =)

best friens STOMPANS!

once again. i cried.

sickandtiredofallthesethings,hurtedbrokentired.
idinnaskformuchimnotaskingforanythinganymore.
God idunwananythinganymore.imtirednsick.takethisawayfromme.
ihatetogethurt ihateihateihateihateihate. shouldibeimmuned
andduncareanymore?thisrealysucks. ihatecryingncryingncrying.whocaneverunderstandhowifeel.
whoevencares.imsickeddd.
heartnosechesteverything.
noneedtogiveintomeanymore.
OLord..plssssssssstakemeawaywithU..idunwannabehere.onmykneesiask.

i hate having blocked nose! i have to breathe through my mouth. and i keep coughing. hahaha. how to breathe!?! jus read newpaper. Behind my old hse, yishun blk 170, got this hill. haha. i lived at tt block for 10 yrs. din know tt the hill was a cemetary. HAHAHA. due to soil erosion. the urn tt was used to contain ashes re-appeared. hahaha. and the newspaper say, the hill contains 34000 died ppl ashes. hahhaha.

i rmmrber when i was very very young. i wanted to have little chicks. cos they are yellow. so one sunday morning, my dad bought me 2 chicks from chongpang. guess wat. they chirp NON stop. sooo.. in tt faithful sunday afternoon.. my dad brought it back to the pet shop and exchange it to a rabbit. no sound one. aiya. anyway. the rabbit died after one week. i was too young to know y. so i jus cried.

so. we had to remove died rabbit. We went downstairs. and my maid. held the plastic bag containing died rabbit. i looked at her climb up to the top of the hill and burried it. hahaa. story end.

anyway. wat i want to say is tt. MY DIED RABBIT IS WITH 34000 died ppl ASHES! HAHAHHA.i can call up the newscentre and tell them. EH! must also include my rabbit! haaa

stupit la.

once again! i love u cA! HAHA 8PM!!! YEAH

once again.
i'm tired.

down wif flu for a few days. on sat night i even had high fever. it was ard 8pm, din go to jazz concert. i was running high temperature. my mum wasnt at home. i was all alone in my mum's room lying on my bed. i tought i was dying. i prayed. ask God to take care of my family.. take care of ca.. and forgive me of all my sins. i really tot i was gona die jus like tt. high tempt.. i wasnt thinking properly. so i got up. and ask my sis to take panadol for me. i woke up. i knew i was tihnking too much. so i ate panodol. and decided to play guitar and sing for God. read the bible. read out loud. asking for God's presenceto be there wif me. He was there. my fever was gone by night.
ca. no worries. nxt time i will call u.
i realised.. when i'm sick. i tend to think alot.

i'm tired. heartache,worried,anxious,weak and everytihng. jus dun feel like toking to anyone. maybe its jus my nose la. i now its not right. but i still human ok.

i'm really tired. i really really feel like taking a long break. i dunno from wat... i have had a long long break already. one yr of long break already. jus feel like gg out of singapore. maybe for cruise.. or for holiday.....

running away.

sometimes. i really dunno wat i wan. seriously. tts y i will say things tt hurt. or heck care here and there. someitmes i care too much. sometimes i dun bother too much. i jus wanna be a peanut.

shall not tok.

silly ca is waiting.
i love you vy much k. i gave u my word. no worries. =) give u a lard. thank you for taking care of me today. refilling water and water.. pei-ing me throughout. haa. as we have prayed today. we noe God will take care of us. =)

yes. i've got my dream mp3 player le. Sony Walkman. heh heh heh















haha. but i can tell you. Sonystage vy hard to use can. but by God grace.. i figure out everytihng vy fast. hahhaa.

ok! people! i told myself
NO TAXI unncessarily AND NO EXPENSIVE FOOD FOR NEXT WK
terms and condition apply.
1.other then thurs's steamboat
2.unless i'm seriously late then can take taxi.


oK! if any of yoU! my friends! or my family! I NEED YOUR GRACIOUS HELP! A HELPING HAND! if you see me doing tt! Please remind me and scold me. AND you are allowed to give me a tight SLAP! ok!? dun heart sofT! JUST SLAP ME!

i must save for nxt wk! cos i spent to much le. thanks for your help.