see. i knew this will happen.

my dad is sitting at the sofa there nagging at me. ok vy simple. my parents had a little quarrel. so..surely my sisters and i will in trouble

i admit i get vyvy impatient when i tok to my dad. orh when my dad ask me out of the question questions. i know this is not good. i hate it when my dad says i treat my home as hotel. argh. i'm like at home most of the time!everytime! i was jus out for like a day. then it seems like i'm out for everyday to him. i'm tired of explaining. and i have learnt to jus keep quiet and ignore.

i guess one reason tt i get impatient wif my dad and cant tok to him properly is becos of him assuming things. and the second is tt.. he doesnt seems to care much about me and my sister's life. he doesnt even know tt i have quit sch for like more then half a year. he doesnt even know tt i'm working. he doesnt even know i din do well for my alevels. he doesnt know who are my friends. he doesnt know tt i wan to go poly nxt yr.he doesnt know wat i'm doing now. he doesnt ask. he doesnt know so many tihngs.he really dunno!.. haiz.. so sad.all these while is only my mum who cares and is over worried wif us. esp me.
it seems he doesnt care at all.

i love my dad ok. i'm jus sad tt he doesnt know me well at all and he dun care to ask too. i hate it when he assume things and think tt he knows me well when he don't!. haiz.
i know my dad has to work. i totally understand. 100%. i support him. if he need help in his work i will give my all to help. But everything jus stop there.
he reaches home everyday. face black. "why is this cup here!", "pls la.. u are the eldest.. u have to help", nag about the hse messy. haiz.. but after tt. fullstop. he is busy i know. but i hope tt he will put in more effort to know us more. not me only. but my sisters too. at least know where we are studyingg.... at least know wat we are doing in our lifes now..

he say i'm impatient when toking to him. most of the time i cant help it. i tried so hard.the thought of him dosnt care about my life at all jus makes me so pissed and tt inccurs the impatience when i tok to him...
now.. i jus keeps quiet. God.. i really wan my dad to know us more.. know me more. and not jus see the surface only..

my dad loves my mum alot i know.
i love him too.
thank God for my dad. thank God for who he is. no matter how dissapointed i am. i still love him. and i wan him so much to come to know Jesus.